Yeah, that's right, it picks up more snow and gets bigger and bigger.

Damn, I'm trying, really I am, but I'm not doing so well right now. Firstly, my grandmother just celebrated her birthday yesterday. She may not make it to next. She's getting worse and worse. The cancer is back and it's hitting her harder and harder. They tried chemo, but the first type made her sick and sent her to the hospital. Now this new one is making her sicker as well. My grandfather is having trouble taking care of her and they're both too proud to ask for help. Their answer is to get in the car and take a long drive off a short bridge if you know what I mean, if worse comes to worse.

I myself have gotten to the point where I can barely use my right arm. I went to the doctor after 4 weeks of intense pain. Turns out my old neck injury is haunting me again. So, after a week of going the the chiro every day, I'm doing a little better. This week I only have to go 3 x. But I'm wondering how I am going to be able to get time to do that. (Time off work. It takes me at least an hour to get between the 2 places.)

Meanwhile, the mortgage business is finally starting to smooth a little, then Chase is being stupid. And trying to do the same thing that they did before. Uh uh, no, not this time. We're behind on the truck payments, but I know in my heart of hearts that we can do this. There is some hope, we just have to get there. My chinese horoscope for 2009 said there would be financial uncertainty until July, then it would start to work out. I know it's a long shot, but everyone needs hope.

I'm not sure what else to say. There's other stuff, but those are the major details. I'm just trying to keep my head above water and not drown in my own pity.